Faith

And without faith it is impossible to please God, because anyone who comes to him must believe that he exists and that he rewards those who earnestly seek him.

Stop.

I need God.

Whatever it is, i cannot lose this heart for God.

Such confidence we have through Christ before God. ⁵Not that we are competent in ourselves to claim anything for ourselves, but our competence comes from God

After surviving with a spare phone for a number of months, i've finally gotten my new iphone4, currently still abit lost in downloading songs etc, and.. oh, i've just got to survive with another new problem, which is not being able to download awesome games which requires $, lol. k, be contented chell. heh.

Why.

Ephesians 6:1-3

¹ Children, obey your parents in the Lord, for this is right. ² “Honor your father and mother”—which is the first commandment with a promise— ³ “so that it may go well with you and that you may enjoy long life on the earth.”

sigh, help!

Do you have, THE REAL FAITH?

or you simply just, BELIEVE.

God,

help.
i want to go deeper in you each day.
In all the midst of my buzzzziness. God, i need more of you.
I needed more of you, lord.

driving me nuts.

Me,

How do you see maturity?

well, some say age, but i guess its the way you react to things, the way you think, the way you act.

Some people may be idk, 16/17 but still ask their mothers to buy clothes for them, decide things for them. Its time to grow up? heh. its your, OUR life after all.

and, amongst my peers, i cant seem to find another me.

Like, yea, the things they say/do. Sometimes just show that they're being insensitive abt their words to the people around them. the way the treat people. sometimes, i just hate it. well, yes, i really am proud to grow and being nurtured and matured in the lord. But yeah, sometimes, i might find some things that are hard to understand.
and, i really want and hope this year, to be a year where i deepen my relationship with God, strengthen myself in the word.

Not by my intellect, but by your wisdom.
Not by my strength, but by your power.
Not by my inclinations, but by your spirit.
Not by my desires, but by your will.

I really pray, desire, to experience more of you, God, in my life. truly from the depth. I ask of you.

What drives me drives them.

Oh God

Heal her, under you mighty hand! Cuz' God works for the good of those who love him! even if situations that may seem unfavorable, may i exercise my will of giving you praise!

What i need

God i know you will provide.

I wanna pour my life God,

lead me lord.

guide me.

teach me.

From the very depths of my heart. thank you lord!!

God ah,

i thank you so much lord.

God, thanks for everything.

and lord, i know all that i am going thru, all that i have been thru from the day i accepted you, your plans, are all good. And lord, i give thanks to you lord. For giving me breath, for giving me life.

For being there in my family, i see forgiveness, i see unconditional love, i see alot in my family.

And lord, i am so sure, you placed my mother in this household for a reason and God, you make no mistakes.

Lord make no mistakes.

Jesus died.

And when i knew that jesus died for me.

I had so much questions popping in my head.

Why did he died for me?

Why did he die, why did he made himself to thru all these? just for me?

Why so ? he is alrdy king, why did he had to do all of these?

i couldn't understand sometimes exactly why....

But when I'm in his presence.... these question all seems to go away and everything make sense..

I couldnt seem to understand why, yet tears just roll.

And i wanted to know so much of God.

I want to get nearer to him.

I want to know him more.

I want his voice to be the center of my life.

I want his voice to be louder, clearer and powerful than any other voices .

God, i want to draw nearer to you.

Oh valentine.

A Guy for me to celebrate valentines? sure.

I wanna spent it, looking back over the years of how my lover had been faithful to me.

Some time to soak in his presence. Some time to realign back my focus and be restored again.

How do we find joy in the lord?

Happiness is fleeting, but Joy can last forever.

HAPPINESS IN BASED ON HAPPENINGS: Did you know that HAPPINESS is based on HAPPENINGS? What am I trying to say? Just think for a moment. Is happiness about vacations, birthdays, Christmas presents, a new car, a new video game, graduation, hitting the lottery, shopping? You fill in the blank. Happiness evokes images of what you can get or what you can do. It's based on feelings.

All too often HAPPINESS is fleeting and despair usually follows.

Why So? Because..

I have seen news stories about numerous people who have won large sums of money by hitting the lottery and wishing they never did! Some people shop to find happiness, but what follows are credit card bills they can't pay.

and also from the bible,

1 timothy 6:10
For the love of money is a root of all kinds of evil. Some people, eager for money, have wandered from the faith and pierced themselves with many griefs.

AND,

instead of looking for HAPPINESS to fulfill that inner desire, something else that is lasting needs to be sought. That something else is JOY! Everlasting JOY!

and, HOW?

Shaking off the things of the world and it's expectations is a good start. Quit feeding the flesh and begin feeding the spirit is another. Material thing don't last and you can't take it with you when you depart from this earth. But the things of God live on.

Romans 8:5-8

⁵ Those who live according to the flesh have their minds set on what the flesh desires; but those who live in accordance with the Spirit have their minds set on what the Spirit desires. ⁶ The mind governed by the flesh is death, but the mind governed by the Spirit is life and peace. ⁷ The mind governed by the flesh is hostile to God; it does not submit to God’s law, nor can it do so. ⁸Those who are in the realm of the flesh cannot please God.

SHAKE YOUR FOCUS OFF YOURSELF: I have found myself to be more joyous when I take the focus off my circumstances of unemployment and heath problems and look outward to help those less off than I am.

Read more: How to Find Joy During The Tough Times | eHow.com http://www.ehow.com/how_4752464_joy-during-tough-times.html#ixzz1Dl6kQOvy

Valentine - Kina Grannis (Official Music Video)

Playing now.

Love, it's a special day
We should celebrate and appreciate
That you and me found something pretty neat
And I know some say this day is arbitrary

But it's a good excuse, put our love to use
Baby, I know what to do
Baby, I...
I will love you
I'll love you, I'll love you

Love, I don't need those things
I don't need no ring
I don't need anything
But you with me
'Cause in your company
I feel happy, oh so happy and complete

And it's a good excuse, put our love to use
Baby, I know what to do
Baby, I...
I will love you
I'll love you, I'll love you

Yeah, it's a good excuse, put our love to use
Baby, I know what to do
Baby, I...
I will love you
I'll love you, I'll love you

So won't you be my honey bee?
Giving me kisses all the time
Be mine, be my Valentine

So won't you be my honey bee?
Giving sweet kisses all the time
Be mine, be my Valentine

Oh, be my Valentine

Its ok. Keep the faith.

K, lets not be beaten down.

Let's get up and may the lord come and take the doubts away.

I want to know him, more, in a deeper manner, than ever before.

This is the best resolution of 2011, nothing can beat that.

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If you never questioned your beliefs, - you are just a puppet dancing to somebody's strings.

Indeed, i've got many questions on my mind lately.

Why am i serving God, Why is history repeating itself again and again.

Is God's power and spirit beating within me??

Last night, i totally hated myself. hated the sin within me. hated my impulsiveness.

I dont know what i needed. But im for sure, I need the father's voice and providence in my life.

sometimes, i no longer know how to do it anymore.

When doubts are piling up, questions left hanging in the are, and shit happens, my faith goes downhill. Where is God?

And to the point, i blame God for it.

Time to go back on track, but i need the father's voice. I need the father's presence.

God, are you there? i dont know how to do it anymore.

How do i hope, how do i trust...

A gift of eternity

Its true, that everybody needs love. I need love. I need it alot. And to know that someone actually love you even when you're on your pjs, morning breath, w/o makeup whatevernots, its really heart warming. Yes, but.... other part from that, would he/she loves you when you turned into someone who is petty, angered easily, gets jealous, sensitive easily, when you broke up with him/her, will he persevere through out his life, spend his life and time on you, JUST TO LOVE YOU?... If there were to be such a person, i really would like to know why would he be so passionate in you when you've lost all sort of intrest in him.....

And yes, to find love, as a normal human being, we find love in the opposite sex. And there are so many many versions of love that we get so mixed up and confused which is love. what is really, love ?

To know true love, to experience true love it can be demostrated thru gifts, words, actions, thru its life. How many would actually TRULY love you with all their life. And love you till your very last breathe, just because he loves you, You might meet somebody at a certain point of life and he pampers you with gifts, with sweet words, just when you're down he is there for you the next min, he might accompany you when you're bored, but when you've got company you shove him aside. Sometimes this world define love is so many many ways that its not even authentic anymore....

But one person, i definitely have met and one person that promised me one thing. and also given me less things on earth but one thing, one gift he given that beats all other gifts, all other roses, all other kisses and hugs, which is gift of eternity and have showed me, and is still loving me and showing me as everyday i look unto him more and more. One kind of love that is the authentic love.

1 Corinthians 13

⁴ Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. ⁵ It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. ⁶ Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. ⁷ It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. ⁸ Love never fails. But where there are prophecies, they will cease; where there are tongues, they will be stilled; where there is knowledge, it will pass away.

I hear so many boyfriend giving in to their girlfriend when they kind of 'throw tantrums', but is that love? God's love does not delight in evil but instead rejoices with the TRUTH. I am amazed by how God can love me, and hopes the best in me, even if im like a brat who's so proud, hot tempered, hold grudges, but still loves and hopes for me. A love that you couldnt express it with any words in the dictionary. But only experience this love, thru the heart, thru the soul....

Mama

Cuz' i know, i believe, no matter what, you'll always watch over me. wherever you are, livin in my heart.

hey, wait a second

have you thought of the people that you failed?????

stop looking inward..

time to look outward.

I could simply hate you for the so so so much things that you did, but you needed love... you need God to fill your inmost being.. You don't need money to satisfy you..... you dont need wealth.. you know you cant buy happiness with money.... You dont need riches...

because its not the wealthy, rich, beautiful, sexy, charming, smart, clever that can enter the kingdom of heaven.

and said in revelations 21 : 27

²⁷ Nothing impure will ever enter it, nor will anyone who does what is shameful or deceitful, but only those whose names are written in the Lamb’s book of life.

I was thinking.... if my name were to be written 'Ritchell Ho' in the Lamb's book of life. How great honour is that..... But i thought to myself, how possible would my name be written in it? base of the life im living ? the sins that i have been sinning..... hidden sins.... how would GOD possibly write my name? It serves a really great and big reminder... to live a life to honour God. My speech, thoughts, motives, actions.... to be pleasing to God...

And hurry.... bring those who haven't repented to come before God and repent. Come before the lord to recieve him...

Dear lord, i truly needed a portion , just a portion of your love. To love this difficult person in my life, attached to me. God... that i am nothing if i don't have love. Just a portion of your indescribable love, to love him.

One thing.

BECAUSE OF YOUR SIN.

Because of SIN in this world.

Shepherd and a sheep

No other voice is more important than the authentic voice of the shepherd.

John 10:3-4
3 The gatekeeper opens the gate for him, and the sheep listen to his voice. He calls his own sheep by name and leads them out. 4 When he has brought out all his own, he goes on ahead of them, and his sheep follow him because they know his voice.

A relationship that is based on his voice.

No other voice, not my voice, not my earthly shepherd voice, not any other christian brother/sister's voice.

But only the voice from the one and only heavenly shepherd.

A personal word from the lord. The bible!

When a person claims to speak for God yet that person is false, the authentic sheep may no know specifically what is wrong but instinctively, we know it is. Its as though a warning bell goes off in our spirits. - Anne Graham Lotz written in My heart's Cry,

me. crazy.

maybe im the only one being crazy. I TOTALLY FEEL THE CNYYY BREEEZEE HAHAAHAH. i love cny! but....... i haven't clean......... my room.......... pack my desks! but hor! whatever i can throw i throw alrdy! my friends encouraged me to go on flea, to sell my clothes! if i were to keep givin away............. i will KUI BEN. lol!!!

just finish shepherding zhiyun and i feel very happy :)

thank God for this and also i outreached today! so happy!

know a new friend and a responsive friend!!! :D

Want to know God, desire more of God! Love God more!!!

glorify God more!!!

:D

J

wow. i cant believe i've dreamt about you! LOL!!! omg. snap me out of this man! LOL! seriously.

Your kindness leads me to repentance
Your goodness draws me to Your side
Your mercy calls me to be like You
Your favor is my delight
Every day, I'll awaken my praise
And pour out a song from my heart

You are good, You are good
You are good, and Your mercy is forever
You are good, You are good
You are good, and Your mercy is forever
You are good, and Your mercy is forever

Your kindness leads me to repentance
Your goodness draws me to Your side
Your mercy calls me to be like You
Your favor is my delight
Every day, I'll awaken my praise
And pour out a song from my heart

You are good, You are good
You are good, and Your mercy is forever
You are good, You are good
You are good, and Your mercy is forever

You are good, You are good
You are good, and Your mercy is forever
You are good, You are good
You are good, and Your mercy is forever

Your kindness is forever, Your goodness is forever
Your mercy is forever, forever
Your kindness is forever, Your goodness is forever
Your mercy is forever, forever

Giving thanks. how do you give thanks?

sometimes i realise myself that i choose what to give thanks for.

which is not good, cuz... is God only good for good things that happen to us? no... but God is good even if the worst things that can happen to us... his Goodness dosent depends on our circumstances but its on God alone. God's goodness is dependent on himself. God.. may i give thanks for the every breath that i breathe..... every new day, new morning, new sun that rises up... thanks for protecting this country im living in .... watching over my family everyday...

God, i may be so far from you to catch up with you. but God, i try, i want to draw near... i want to know you, experience you more in a intimate way. And i pray you'll draw me nearer to you. W/o you today.... helping me to ask the class to listen to me.. and thanks for making things much easier...

God... daily, surrender, let go, to take up your cross to follow you. To live for you and being blessed to bless others.

Help me be more patient towards my family. Each new day, a new obedience, a new desire filled up.

God thank you.

passion for God cause us to have compassion for people

quoted pastor jeff.

This is true!!

Wanna devote myself to more private worship with God

to love him more!!!

Fixated?

No! change my heart from being fixated!

I want a soft heartt!!!

2 Corinthians 4:16-18

Therefore we do not lose heart. Though outwardly we are wasting away, yet inwardly we are being renewed day by day. For our light and momentary troubles are achieving for us an eternal glory that far outweighs them all. So we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen, since what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal.

Shift the focus that is on myself.

To the focus that, is on your kingdom.

All because i love you when you loved me.

And i want to bring you glory through my life.

Help me, live a life not of I but of You. And can be described only by YOU and never I.

And God, I really need your timely reminder when you know i'll forget them.

when im starting to indulge in my own wants, my own self. Snap me out of it!

2 Corinthians 4:16-18

Therefore we do not lose heart. Though outwardly we are wasting away, yet inwardly we are being renewed day by day. For our light and momentary troubles are achieving for us an eternal glory that far outweighs them all. So we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen, since what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal.

Bring me back.

Bring me back. To a love i can never measure its depths. I want it back.

Another mountain of temptations. fight another few more.

Religion is not something separate and apart from ordinary life. It is life -- life of every kind viewed from the standpoint of meaning and purpose: life lived in the fuller awareness of its human quality and spiritual significance.

I need your assurance.

I need to know why, alot of why's.....

Nevertheless, i still want to need you.

I love, Because you first loved me.

I needed one serious reflection in my relationship with God.

I need to know, i need to clarify my doubts to God.

Today... i waited, i hoped to hear his voice. I hoped that he'd put down all these doubts.

And just one moment. ' I loved because you first loved me ' strucked me, when i ended school after my cca. I was in awe.

I repeatedly ask myself this particular question last night to myself, i couldn't find an answer to it. i Couldnt sleep. And I dont give up, i keep in hope. And i believed as what he said, never will he leave me never will he forsake me.
No more to listen what my emotions/feelings tell me. I put trust in God's word.

and i want to slowly listen, to what he has for me. & God, i want more of you. Less of me.

I want to enjoy my last week of service. With my sisters and brothers. I miss them so much. seems like i dont get to see them around, anywhere...... it sucks. sigh! miss north! i miss the family!

Some random thoughts.

I dont wish to make covenant with God when I FEEL happy.

When I FEEL convicted. This will just fade away, 3months later.

NO.

I dont want. I dont wanna care which season of life i am in. Happy, Sad, Tired, Exhausted, Coped up with too much of school work.
I wanna hold on to my r/s with God. I don't wanna chuck him aside... when im busy.... whatever.

I need him more. I want to need him more each day. I want to need him more than yesterday.

At that split second when i was angry towards her, God told me....

i am here to be used by God to guide his people. I am here to do God's work,

Shuo nan ting,

i have no rights to even think abt myself. Do I feel happy abt this, do I feel like doing this, How do I feel abt this. cause if i do, then its a ME thing. Its not a jesus thing.

I am here for the lord. I work as if for the lord, not for men.

God, captivate my thoughts. That all i can ever think, is about you. about what you want me to do.

Like john the baptist who declared that HE must increase and I must decrease.

Galatians 6:8 (New International Version, ©2010)

⁸ Whoever sows to please their flesh, from the flesh will reap destruction; whoever sows to please the Spirit, from the Spirit will reap eternal life.

reminder to self

Jesus will deny us before God as we deny him before people.

Sucks to be w/o u

Jiayou ba,
Go back to God once again, Chell(:

Hai, wo hen sad. ): wo hen angry. ): Hai....

Woah.

Seeing my friends get in love,

Or on the streets, couples holding hands, cuddling,

friends sharing to me abt the sweet texts, sweet talks abt her guy,

i thought to myself, i have one too. i have God, i have this lover of my life. that loves me, that fills me.

What more can i want to have? i wan to be satisfied, i want the bread of life,

John 6:35
Then Jesus declared, “I am the bread of life. Whoever comes to me will never go hungry, and whoever believes in me will never be thirsty.

I wanna write a love story with God....

jealousy is arousing when i see people, closer to God than me...

anger is arousing when i couldn't be disciplined, when im lazy...

when im self centered, prideful..... when im materialistic...

Shit these, shit them. get lost in my life. fade away as i put God my focus and the things of the world will slowly fade away.

Mark 7:6
He replied, “Isaiah was right when he prophesied about you hypocrites; as it is written: “‘These people honor me with their lips, but their hearts are far from me.

no way i want to become a hypocrite. ):

If you talk more than doing more, there's something wrong.

Sucks to be self centered.

Sucks to be prideful.

I dont deserve to have or gain all these.

The lord can give and take away.

Teach me how to pour down myself to you, teach me your ways, God, please.

I dont want to be self centered. I dont wanna think that I'VE GOT A PROBLEM and everyone have to come and serve me. gah, change me God! Change me!

2011.

Everyone have been posting abt how 2010 have been for them, so i shall do it too. Seems fun! haha. Well, 2010....

definitely one thing above everything, I grew in my spiritual walk with God.

-I went to Hongkong with my family and created memories tgt!

-I was nervous on my school's speech day, cuz i was playing the drum.

-My aunt gotten some tumor in her head and recovered :)

-I made a decision to give up a relationship because its unpleasing to God.

-I grew from there on.

-Had an older sister that joined me and my family.

-Relatives from china came over for vacation.

-I met some closed friends in church, but isn't that close as before.

(one thing i hated and regretted most, hais.)

-I had a difficult time in my lifegroup as well.

-Yishun Town was shrinking, i didnt know what to do except to lead lifegroup well.

-Almost backslided due to discouragements.

-Was a freaking emotional Girl but then i've learnt how to live by God's word :)

(super love this! :) )

-Led ONE worship and praise this year. *phew* haha!

-I grew closer to my mum :)

-I worried alot in 2010.

-I shopped so much this year. LOL.

-Many ppl came to church, but left and came back again :)

-my temper wasnt that bad compared in the past.

....

its all these i can remember :) hmm, i really want 2011 to be better.

I want more breakthroughs, more spiritual growth, more and more. More growth.

North, Yishun Town, My Life.

& yea tmrw's starting school.... i am nervous... suddenly i feel that i've got so much to do and realign. How? i don't know how. somebody, God, enlighten me? Hai!

Mammeee sponsor me my wedges! woaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa ~ :)

What i want isnt just knowing about God, but knowing him personally. having a living relationship with him.

Need a pause moment

to make sure im on the right track.

not just running towards the wind.

In step with what God wants to do in my life.

A shepherd and a sheep.

i think the best thing a shepherd yearns for her sheep is, for her sheep to grow.

To be used by God, to grow his sheep.

as bernice is sleeping soundly at my couch.....................................

I am determined, to really wanna know God more.

TO REALLY LOVE GOD MORE. AND MORE AND MORE AND MORE.

A reminder to self.

When we wanna point at others, please point to ourselves first.

R,

Good friends still forget one another. Truth hurts. Hai.

How pride can be deadly.

How this sinful nature can be deadly.

I hate it. I HATE TO SIN and God help me! I wanna burn my anger to those who refuse to change, refuse to walk right with you.

I dont wanna burn my anger towards things that are nothing, towards things that will not please you. Towards things that i just lose my top and.......... just blown it. over and over again. HELP ME!

Humility opens to wisdom.

Proverbs 11:2

² When pride comes, then comes disgrace,
but with humility comes wisdom.

Proverbs 29:23 (The Message)

²³ Pride lands you flat on your face;
humility prepares you for honors.

I want to live, to please the ONE and ONLY.

To Consider others before myself.

To rid my pride my self and be humble, because of the grace from above that has been given to me so that i can be here.

Serving God and his people, is never about myself. And it will never ever be about myself because its all about God, forever and ever it will and it has always been abt him being glorified in other's life.

Pride = I want it my way. I dont need God's help, im clever enough.

Mind blowing questions.

as i come across some questions from people about God....... which can blow you away, like just one simple word.... ' really???? ' it challenges me, it some how attacks my faith, wavers me a slight bit, ..and i try my best to answer them with all i got,
sometimes i just feel that. I DONT KNOW GOD ENOUGH, I DONT KNOW HIS WORD ENOUGH, im not strong enough.......and........................................ ya..... I am hungry for more, hungry to know God more.... I dont see the perfect picture of God YET, i want more! less of myself, more of God, PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE!

To be honest,

To be honest, i dont have the wisdom that will make people look at me and say ' wow' . I dont speak the best english. I dont have the drop dead gorgeous look, i dont have the best results, i am not as charismatic as others, i may not relate best or well to people,
but i....... really wanna give all i've got...... for God? because.... he's worthy of it......

I want to start

to break down... some walls.

Now, time for 'actions speak louder than words' , more fasting and praying to come! Intensive praying and worship in camp will be wasted if you simply dont apply it, dont seek to dig a much more deeper understanding in the word, or keep walking in the Lord's plans for you, gonna be totally wasted! and guess what! yup new dreams and visions are born, new challenges, new start of north, A NEW START FOR YISHUN TOWN, God called ME. And, ME, with God, i'll want to give my life. New Covenants are made, in the lifegroup, in north, in Y-HOPE. God told me, there's definitely more than this. And im cannot help but to really agree, there's definitely more than what we are today. Heck care bout the numbers, what im doing.... is becuz, i love God, i feel for his people. and it sparks my heart, moves my heart, shakes my heart.

Discipline, its all that it takes.

Hi! Woohoo! Am listening to worship songs and.... its gonna be camp SO SOON LAAA. Honestly, i am excited!

A time with my lg, north and also seeking God! I really thank God. my relationship with him progressed! From always procastinating whether to seek God or not? and to everyday, i yearn to seek him, to talk to him, to confide in him :) God is awesome and its so true, not one can EVER touch my heart the way God does! :) I feel much closer to him, as i seek him daily! but ya! its not enough..... i want to seek him even more... i want him to speak to me even more! its not enough... truly it isnt enough! I cannot explain how im feeling in words you know, im so eager, to wait on the holy spirit.... wait on, what exactly God wanna speak to me.. to my sheep, to my life.. I pray, i fast, God, may your hand move and be upon my life, my lg And MY DEAR NORTH!

I was thinking for the past few days, how is God's presence like? is it very supernatural or... will make you very afriad? i kinda have this fear....... and, i really pray God will take this barrier out in my heart and seek him with all of my heart and soul :)
God touches my heart in a very soft and gentle way, when i smile and it comforts me, i know its God. :) how to tell you this feeling? haha! i love his presence :) well, really treasure the presence of God in your life :) its important, it gives you hope, it secures you :) it tells you, 'my child,i love you!' :)

let's all romance with God! :) God's lovee is powerful, God's love surpasses all the worldly love! praise God! :)

so looking forward to camp! God will pour! :) i trust in that! do you!? :D

This is too horrible!

Boomz. i am tooo howwwwwwwwwwible! ): dark eye circles *pouts*!

Intensive prayer life.

Sitting in the silence, keeping my heart still before God and hear what he has to say.

None like you

There is none like You,
No one else can touch my heart like You do,
I can search for all eternity Lord
And find, there is none like You.

There is none like You.
No one else can touch my heart like You do,
I can search for all eternity Lord
And find, there is none like You.

deep

whenever i look back, i will never fail to feel sad.

i am really unsatisfied with where i am, and what i see in my community.

Our standards drop, we are so busy with each our lives and do we even bother abt the lives of our people.... we are so self centered, we..... save the best for ourselves. no more genuine love, concern. i missed that, i miss genuine friends, genuine concern
i once found them in church, i once found a bunch of people that cared and loved me for who i am. but, the amount decreased as time passes, i no longer find.... care and love in this community ..... and i wonder why.....
the church should hold the answers that the world is questioning today, and....... how are we suppose to answer them.... when our actions... simply dont show....
what is this?

My friend,

my friend, my friend,

Dont masquerade, God sees it all. You CAN be weak, dont hide, dont bottle up. dont. DONT give up, my friend. I've been there, hang on, hang on my friend.

mixed.

I dont know who is still bothered to read this website but, haha, well, whatever.

sitting infront of this screen, my mind and heart is going thru many things . wanting to do so much more, but, somehow, laziness kills, procrastinating kills, timidness kills, faithless kills, Lord. help me.

as i was spending time with God, i realise, to want to do BIG THINGS, small THINGS for God, i really want to learn to love God more, for the foundation in the purpose why we wanna do things for God is because we love him and in return for his love for us . Loving him because of him, not because of what he could provide. HOW can we actually love him for who he is?? somesay, dont only love the gifts but love the giver as well. but i pray God will put opportunities in my daily life, and help me to love him more, help me to LEARN to love him more. I am desperate to grow my relationship with God, but, i am totally clueless in HOW. I dont wanna be stucked and forever STUCKED in this awful level relationship with God. everyday i go out and meet different people, sitting with different groups of people, i see flaws in the community, i see so much room of growth that everybody can grow in . and I AM BURDENED. how can i express this? will people bother to hear? will people... even care? will people act on it? will people even understand!? Gosh.

seriously, i want my life to be right on track with God, its so gonna be uncomfortable for me to grow, and keep growing leaps and bounds for God, firstly, i wanna love him more, each day i live, I WANT TO.

We are beautiful no matter what they say :)

It breaks my heart. And my heart seems to break so easily at the slightest thing that can hit me.
what i want and ask of is your support. And its your support that helps me and grows me to be a better person. You always................... say words that tear me down. and seriously. i hate to hear those stuff....... i want your support in the things that i do. I hope you give me your support. but... you always seem to be against everything that i wanted............. whats this............ deep down.... if i had a chance to change my fate, i wouldnt wanna be your daughter. Never.

My heart's so soft. Help me to be stronger. God, help.

My friend,

Our God has done even much more. even much much much for you that will move your heart.

During quiet time with God, God challenged me, to live out my convictions. Not merely just by typing or talking about my convictions. But..... truly living it out.

Love my family! love my church.

One thing im for sure, your motive is already wrong in the first place and it doesnt pleases God.

God, put more obstacles in my way, i want to grow!

Holidays plan :

Walk even closer with God.

Spend even more intentional time with God.,

Build my relationship with Sheeps.

Build intentional friendship with friends.

(includes church and school friends)

all these for now.

excited for annual church camp. excited to experience a breakthrough, at home and in my own spiritual life.

God, help me keep to my word.

Hold me accountable.

Leaders don’t make excuses By Rick Warren

One of the most basic job descriptions of leaders is that they accept responsibility for the problems of others -- problems they didn’t cause. Leaders don’t make excuses.
They don’t look at their churches and say, “Those people got themselves into this mess, let’s see them get out of it”.

If you see a problem in your church and say, “It’s not my business,” you’re not a leader.

If you see someone with a problem and you say, “It’s not my responsibility,” you’re not a leader.

If you see a problem but you say, “I don’t have the talent or the funds to do something about it,” you’re not a leader.

Leaders don’t make excuses. They take what they have and do the best they can to help others. The Bible says in Proverbs 22:13, “The lazy person is full of excuses.” (NLT) Leaders aren’t lazy.

Leadership isn’t about you. It’s not about your problems, your needs, or your prestige. It’s not about you; it’s about helping other people with their problems and how those problems can be solved.

Moses did this. Hebrews 11:25 says, “Moses chose to be mistreated along with the people of God rather than to enjoy the fleeting pleasures of sin.” (NIV) Moses was raised in Pharaoh’s palace, the ultimate place of luxury in his world. Out his window were one million crying, dying slaves.

Moses could have easily turned a deaf ear to them and said, “I’m sorry but I don’t have time to get involved in that. It’s none of my business. It’s not my responsibility. Would somebody please peel me another grape?”

But he didn’t. He was a leader, and leaders accept the problems of other people and make them their responsibility.

Pastor, that means you can’t blame others for problems in your church. The problems may have been at the church when you arrived. But you’re the pastor now. When sheep have problems, the shepherd has problems.

This is not just limited to your church. Take a look at your community. Is there a need you can meet? It’s easy to say it’s not the church’s job. It’s easy to say let the government fix it. If you want your church to take the lead in your community, the church has to take on the community’s problems as its own.

Is unemployment high in your community? Is illiteracy climbing where you’re church is located? Are the children growing up without fathers? Instead of passing the buck, challenge your people to be a part of the solution.

It’s what Jesus did. He didn’t have a sin problem. He was perfect. He could have stayed up in heaven and enjoyed his perfect relationship with the Father. But, as Paul tells us in Philippians 2, Jesus didn’t take advantage of his divine nature. Instead, he took on the responsibility for our sin.

That’s Jesus. That’s leadership.

To the person who i didnt had a chance to say to:

I hope you'll guard your heart against all else. Dont even trust yourself that when you say you wont, you really wont. Who knows, one day you will still choose to turn your back against God for that Guy. The heart IS deceitful, Please. Guard your heart. Please know what you are doing. Maybe im still worried, because of your actions. because of what you've said that made me worry. I've been thru, i tried guarding my heart, but i still fail. So, i wanna let you know, when it comes to things like this, please guard your heart. Please pray, please watch your r/s with God, please watch your motives. I hope you really will stand strong till the very end :) because, i've learnt. even if my best friend falls. i have to still stand strong. Because..... how strong is my r/s with God does not depends on the existence of my closest friend, family, leader, shepherd, anything. How strong my r/s with God, depends on MYSELF. I really wish to say all these to you!

Am thinking to join girls hiphop @ recognize studios on thurs, 7-8pm. :)

Was talking to God last night, and before i shut my eyes, i would want to remember this for life, is to live my life to make him proud. Not to many any others proud, but i want, i want to make God proud. everytime God gives me a brand new chance to start anew with him, and guilt, shame is being washed away by his grace, by his mercy.

Hongkong.

Hello peeps! haha! i just had a 5 days trip to hongkong! with my family! went to the disney land, ocean park, and many other places. Couldnt remember, but i know i enjoyed shopping alot! shoes, clothes,bags,makeup! etc! hahahaha! i slept very soundly almost everynight, my sis, me and my bro slept in a room, while my mum and dad in a room :) i enjoyed myself alot though............................. i didnt had the chance to buy gifts for all my friends! I simply love the weather at hongkong ALOT too! its the kind of weather that all singaporeans would like to havee! hahaha, i felt missed by my friends while im at hongkong too! :)
and after days of fun, was on the bus to the airport. i was reflecting on the whole trip, i questioned myself some questions, and i got back negative answers and negative thoughts and feelings as well.

God kinda revealed more and more of the flaws in my life, if i were to count them, its really never ending. and he reminded me about my credibility as well, how much am i keeping to my word. and also challenged me to be a woman of my word. God always always always never fail to remind me , in a midst of everything. Fun? fun is fun, but i know i needa get serious with God at times. well, i also want to thank God for serveral things, allowing my family to have a 5 day break and just quit from our busy lifestyles to spent some time together, though the 5 days werent really spent well. but, at least we as a family created memories together.
Haha, on a side note, i also want to thank God, you know i almost got knocked down by this huge truck. and... i was the only one standing infront of that truck. i was numb, and didnt know how to react. thank God for stopping that truck in time. also, misplaced my phone but God managed to help me find by phone back thru this awesome shop attendant. God blessed my flight to and fro to be a really smooth one.

Back from hongkong, back again to grow and change more. God, i need your guidance and watch-over. Pray you'll send reminders always when i forget.

more photos @fb!

eyes opened.

i always curse under my breathe when my parents does not get me what i want when they got the $$$$$$, and they will tell me when i grow up, buy it myself, thinking deeper, i find it super ridiculous when others have it and i dont have it, but at the end i think, i am grateful. crazy isnt it? because, at least i wouldnt be sucha spoilt brat that get whatever i wanted. instead, i will get to taste what it is like to get the things i want, within my own means. to taste the hardwork for money. And thats the best thing my parents can teach me. Parents wont be there to provide for you forever.

Childish.

When you choose that path, you're just otw to lose your whole life. Go ahead and swear how miserable your life is, and i'll help you open your eyes to see, there's actually an easier way out.

Blessings for Obedience

Have you forgotten that... God was the one that brought you out of your misery?

Have you forgotten that... the lord our God, is good always?

Have you forgotten that... only our God can satisfy our hungry soul?

Have you forgotten that... God IS the only way?

Have you forgotten that... our God is always faithful?

Have you forgotten that... our God has plans to prosper but not to harm us?

Have you forgotten that... God is our everything?

Have you forgotten that... the joy of the lord is your strength?

Have you forgotten that... Only God is in control of everything.

Have you forgotten that... God is just by your side?

WAKE UP KIDDO.

Do you remember?

Spending some time. looking thru my old blog post. I really want to embracemy past :) and..... who said past is past, past cant happen again!!?? haha!

want to use my holidays to spend time building relationships with my friends!

Day by day,

Help me to surrender upon my whole life for your will.

Day by day,

help me to know that You are God and I am NOT.

Day by day,

put obstacles in my daily life, to help me grow.

Day by day,

help me to experience more of your indescribable love and compassion for people.

Day by day,

help me trust in you more and more,

day by day,

help me to be more sensitive to the holy spirit

day by day,

help me to surrender my pride and self desires to you.

day by day,

help me to be more of you less of me.

day by day,

i want to love you more.

Day by Day,

i want to live out your principles.

day by day,

i want to be continually changing by your love.

day by day,

help me to rely on you but not on earthly stuffs.

day by day,

help me to live for your applause not man applause.

and the list goes on.

This life, my life, there's so much to be done. God, this life must not stop proclaiming about your goodness.

Help me out in my life God! Bless me with the sprirt, the strength! to change and have anger management ! help!

Sometimes

Sometimes I just feel it's my own being and not othersss . Z. The problem is jus
Me and not others . I want to change and cultivate good spiritual habits ! Want to grow grow grow wants to have humility, wanna put dow my pride! Don't wanna be aaaaaaaaa ok may sound nasty but ya don't wanna be a bitch :) help me God ! It won't do without your strength and help!!! Trusting you all my days! Amen!

More of God less of me. Help me live it out.

Being attracted to a guy isnt wrong in itself: its a natural part of the way that God made us. But if we dont handle attraction correctly, it can also become one of the most dangerous stumbling blocks to our spiritual walks. If you allow attraction toward a guy to overtake your thoughts, emotions it can easily become an idol in your life that is taking your focus off christ.

But if you handle attraction right from the beginning, it dosent need to become a stumbling block to your inner purity and self apartness for christ.

i've definitely learnt alot from an awesome girls website :) will post more with what i've learnt!!!!!!

your way home

Sincerity.

Lets start being sincere and not being superficial.

well. its kinda silly and dumb to leave for another imperfect human being.

when you venture out and realise its a world of hurts and cruelness, you'll find your way back home again.

Hey peeps! frisbee with meg, cyril and keat was exciting! first time cyril coached us know! hahahaha was nice and. had dinner with em' as well :)

recently, there's so much of ongoing ............. and, things are simply like changing at every blink of an eye. So much changes and..... people come and go. it breaks and aches my heart. it crushes my heart and i dont knw how to explain this heart ache. all i can is, surrender all these to God. to the one that is in control and... the author of life. as much as i hate that these are happening right now, i gotta move on. and keep in mind, to be strong in my walk and r/s with God. seeing people fall away, is not nice. defintely, this cannot be such a happening thing everytime. I love the people that are serving together with me. I love the family that God has given to me. I love the church. I love his people. I want to pick myself up again, and.. run. run together with God once again! there's so much loopholes in my life that i need to do some filling in . there's so much changes i need to do..... meanwhile...... God, help me be more sensitive to your voice and the holy spirit as well. its all in your hands! amen!

YOU PROVED ME RIGHT, YOU PROVED ME RIGHT.

别人好过自己兄妹。

trust me, that thing will KILL YOU. Times and time again. DONT TELL ME IM ANGERED EASILY. For whatever sake, im talking to you. AND IM ASKING YOU THINGS. Shouldnt you give a damn????? if you sheep happens to have problems, shouldnt you be respond? or just sit there, eh wait i playing my game. LIKE HELLOOOO. You tell me you're gonna be a leader, you seriously need to start being serious with everything. See you everything so blur like sotong head....... i worry. But heck cares right? you dont even bother. even if the world falls apart, jesus come back, your xbox matters more than anything else in this world.

I can cry, i can swear, i can curse, i can emo, i can blackface, i can dont talk, i can hate my parents, hate myself, but at the end of the day, I NEVER FAIL TO KNOW i need God, because i am weak, i need God. but even if im strong, shan't let the pride build me up. I need God, :) everything makes sense. and. whatever it is now, God is in control :) wants to trust more, love more, surrender more :)