i curse under my breath.

im filled with sarcasm....... dont like realistic people. but sadly i seem to be one too. Sucks to see people coming to you only when things dont turn right in your life. friends dont only mean : being there when one is sad.

Or does apply to only some people.

To me it means everything. Maybe my standards and expectations are simply too high that i feel that everyone is failing me big time. whatever. Too self centered recently..............

People that i expect to be sticking with me through this period of time wasnt actually there, but people that i dont expect to be here actually sticked through. Whats this, are you telling me that what? you're only gonna be there for me when im gonna die???? But, its just not what i wanted.... and am i supposed to tell you every single thing, pour out every single thing to you when... DEEP DOWN I KNOW I RARELY KNOW YOU, we hardly have any any any communication, it just dosent help....................... seriously. Coax me a thousand times, it dosent help. Dont mind me being harsh....

There's once this saying,

smth like, screw things up just to see who is there to fix it for you.

reliable not sia? HA. crap la.......

:/ x100