tell me, how i can i EVER, E.V.E.R make you understand. telling you? You're on deaf ears. trying to try after tries. I hope you do change, ON YOUR OWN. always swearing and cursing like never before. It hurts so madly. Serious! I, dont know what to do with you anymore. Its so disappointing.

People say, they need our understanding. Do you really need my understanding? Or my understanding so that i could give in to your sinful ways and you could do whatever you want already. I cant let you see my emotions, i have to hold it there. If it was always me, trying to understand you, when will you ever understand me? I have been having the intention of keep going to you, to build our r/s closer, when will YOU take a step closer to me, to come and know me more? Its like, com'on, we're so close yet so far. tell me when will things ever change? TELL ME. you said you wanna change, ask yourself, when will you ever START CHANGING??????

God, opportunities are flying all over, yet none of them are catching it. Lord w/o you i will seriously fail alone. But with you, at least i am not alone. I want to keep it going.

Love you, like never before? its gonna be hard, ever than before.